Ghostyyyy

"Loving You Quietly"-Original by me
We're not together.
Not really.
No titles, no promises
people can point at and say,
that's what they are.
Just two people
standing close enough to feel it,
but far enough apart
to pretend it isn't love.
You're still healing.
Still carrying pieces of a past
that cut you when you hold them too tight.
And I see the way it weighs on you—
the way your heart flinches
when something gets too real.
So I don't ask for more.
Instead
I love you quietly.
From a distance
that sometimes feels like it's tearing me open.
I answer the late-night calls.
I sit with your silence.
I listen when the past spills out of you
like something that's been rotting inside your chest.
And I'm steady.
Even when my heart
wants to scream
just love me back already.
Even when it hurts
watching you rebuild yourself
brick by brick
knowing I'm not the home you're ready to live in yet.
But I'm loyal.
In a world that moves on quickly,
in a world where people replace each other
like old songs on a playlist—
I stay.
I don't look for someone else
to fill the space you occupy in me.
I don't chase attention
just to quiet the ache of waiting.
I just stand here,
loving you softly,
carefully,
like holding something fragile
that doesn't even realize
how gently it's being handled.
Because healing takes time.
And I'd rather love you slowly
than rush you into something
your heart isn't ready to carry.
So for now
I'll be the steady one.
The safe place.
The quiet presence.
The girl who loves you
without demanding you love her back today.
And maybe one day
when the ghosts finally loosen their grip on you—
you'll turn around
and realize
the whole time
you were learning how to breathe again…
I was right here,
loving you from a distance
and never once
letting go. ❤️

"Never Enough"- Original by Me

What's wrong with me?
I ask through tears at two or three,
staring at my silent phone,
wondering why I'm always left alone.
Why am I loved just halfway through,
while others get forever from you?
What makes me so easy to leave,
so easy to hurt, so hard to keep?
I gave you my heart, my trust, my time,
let you hold every fragile piece of mine.
I loved you deeply, honest and true,
while slowly losing myself in you.
I tried so hard to be enough,
to be the girl you'd finally love.
I bit my tongue, I hid my pain,
just hoping you would choose to stay.
But I'm always the almost girl,
never the one that means the world.
Just someone people hold for fun
until they find the person they want.
The girl before the real thing comes,
the temporary place to run.
The one they call when they feel alone,
then leave the second healing's done.
And God, it hurts more than I can say,
watching people slowly walk away.
Feeling their effort fade with time
while I still love with all of mine.
I keep asking what I lack,
why nobody ever loves me back.
Why I'm so easy to forget
like I was never worth the stress.
Was I too soft? Too much? Too real?
Too full of love, too quick to feel?
Or am I simply meant to be
someone they use temporarily?
Because every time I let love in,
it leaves me emptier than I've been.
Another wound, another scar,
another person who didn't stay long.
I wanted to be somebody's first,
not just the girl they choose when hurt.
I wanted someone proud to say,
"She's the one, and I will stay."
But here I am, heart in my hands,
watching love slip like grains of sand,
still wondering through all the pain
why I'm never the one they claim.
And maybe that's what breaks me most—
how easy I am to outgrow.
Because no matter how hard I try,
I'm always the girl they leave behind.

Why Me?- original by me

You walked away so easily,
like I was hard to keep,
like all the nights we stayed awake
meant nothing once you'd sleep.
And now I lie here wondering
what I did to lose your heart,
why you came into my life at all
if you knew you'd leave from the start.
Why me?
Why hold me close and pull me in,
just to turn so cold?
Why make me feel so safe with you
then leave me here alone?
Why let me get attached to you,
why make me love so deep,
if all along your promises
were never yours to keep?
Because the truth is, I saw forever
every time I looked your way,
I truly thought you were the one
who finally came to stay.
I thought you would be different,
soft where others were cruel,
the kind of man who'd choose my heart
instead of making me feel used.
But boy, was I wrong.
You became another lesson,
another name that hurts,
another person proving love
can leave you feeling cursed.
Now every memory cuts deeper,
every song feels out of place,
because I still see comfort
whenever I picture your face.
Was I too much?
Not enough?
Too loving? Too sincere?
Tell me why it was so easy
for you to disappear.
Because I loved you honestly,
with every piece of me,
and you still walked away
like losing me was easy.
So now I sit with broken trust,
asking God what I did wrong,
why the people I love the most
never seem to stay too long.
And the saddest part of all is,
despite the pain you put me through,
if you came back tomorrow,
I'd still open the door for you.